Okay, so I know no one can really tell me what to do. But don't you ever just wish someone could make decisions for you?
I started homeschooling my first child when he was very young. I homeschooled him through the preschool years. Then I put him in first grade in public school, only because I was having my third child. I only commit myself to a year by year basis. Like I committed to one year of homeschool at a time and then public school one year at a time. I never thought public school would be for long.
My oldest is considered to be gifted in public school. I believe it is only because I have taught him so much. Well I have been very relaxed on my second child, as far as teaching goes. I think I have gotten lazy knowing that she can learn in school.
I keep getting homeschool magazines and such in the mail. I look through them and say to myself, "This would be good to learn about" and I catch myself daydreaming about teaching again. I would love to teach my children at home. I know I can do so much of a better job than the school system can.
Well for the school year, my husband will be deployed to Iraq. Just being the summer, I am having such a terrible nerve racking time raising three children, cleaning house, and living somewhere I have no family other than my children. I told myself there is always next year to homeschool since this year is just too stressful. And if I do it this time, I want to commit to all the years of school, not just to a few.
Not to mention, I am looking forward to some peace and quiet when my older two go to school. That way it will be me and baby and I can get some things done around the house and maybe have some me time while I am at it. I feel so selfish for thinking that way.
One way we look at it, I can still be involved with their schooling since I am at home. I can be involved in homework, class parties, etc, etc. That way they can still get a good education....I just know it is not as good as what they could get at home, ya know? I mean, do you think that this is true? That just because I am involved in their schooling at public school that they will be okay?
I don't know. I guess I am looking for advice, not necessarily someone to tell me what to do...although that would be nice, too :)