here it is i would just like to know if i am the only person out there that is tired of being a adult here i am 38 almost to the big B-Day and i will 39 ,i have 5 kids they can be at any givin moment the sweetest kids and then it happens they change to the meanest most selfish unhelping monsters on this side of the planet but yet i love them still !!! go figure , i think with this new age comming i have been thinking more about my past then i ever had at times when i look in a mirror i haved to look closer because i dont know the person looking back at me ,either that or i may need glasses .when i think about my life i think is this what i was put here to do ? i sometimes for a second think i may have taken a few wrong turns in my path in life .as i write this my youngest has just finished eating her own slices of pizza and has come to work on mine and dang i am hungry ! this happens alot i must eat fast or it is gone .when i woke this morning as a new grandmother i have lots of new feelings the first i really believe im a little young to be one ,next that i love my new granddaughter so much the next relief that they dont live with me ,i really believe after raisingkids since age 15 that i deserve to be done with all the bad that comes with a new baby i need to be just grandma .all my kids are are older except the my 9 yr old but that is still good age to get out and go with .i find myself missing the simple life when i was a kid no bills ,no worries ,the good life when i used to worry over if ken and barbie had matching clothes OH those were the good days !i looked on ebay for someone who may have a time machine imagine my shock when no one did ,i asked my doctor if he had a magic potion he didnt .sometime it feels like i went to sleep playing and woke up to this crazy dream that is everlasting i have piched my self many times to see if i was ,i think i need those red shoes in the wiz oz so i can click my heels and go home .now my daughter has finished my pizza im lef with none .but then she smiles you see i would change my life for anything i just wish for a little more ..............i just wish i knew what that little something more was .