I have always wanted and dreamed of having a BIG family. 4-5 kids. My husband agreed with that before we ever got married. However, due to medical issues we have been forced to stop at 2 children. I love my boys, they are my entire world. Yet, to know I'll never be pregnant again, never hold a newborn infant, or generally get to enjoy all the wonderful parts of watch a baby become a child, just breaks my heart. I know it is the correct decision for me and my family, but it sucks! Has anyone else dealt with this issue? How did you cope with these feelings? Thanks in advance.